Monday, December 15, 2008
Call now before supplies run out
Anyway, I just think that it is pretty ridiculous that we have people making money from all this. Who the hell decided to make those coins? And why, if they were going to be anything like coins, would they be in color? I think the fact that these coins are so tacky makes it that much worse. Why can't we just have his face sketched on there? Coins aren't supposed to be colorful. Not in my opinion anyway.
Oh, I digress.
I'm waiting for my grades to be posted online. Professors have to have them in by noon on Tuesday. Two grades are posted already; choir and nutrition, which I got As in. Go me. I'm just waiting for marketing to confirm the B, and International Public Relations, my PR internship and Creative Writing, which I'm pretty sure will all be As. I'm hoping those grades will be posted tomorrow. We shall wait and see.
I need to go to bed.
Until next time...(g'night)
Friday, December 12, 2008
It's the end of the fall semester
Sadly, I won't have a 4.0 this semester because of a B in Marketing, but I can't say that I didn't try. Right? Right. Anyway...
I just got a call and I'm going to eat now. I may update this entry later.
Until next time...
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I can now organize my toiletries...
It wouldn't be such a let down if his past gifts hadn't been so great. Let's go back in time to visit gifts past:
First Christmas (2006): A hematite necklace and earrings set. Along with a beautiful silver bracelet.
Second Christmas (2007): A sapphire necklace, which I love.
For my birthday/Valentine's Day in 2007: Tickets to the Justin Timberlake/Pink concert in Nashville. I loved it! Also, a cute little stuffed puppy.
I can't remember what, if anything, I got for my birthday/Valentine's Day this past year, but we were taking one of those stupid "breaks" and I had the flu around that time. I think he got me something for my birthday, but I don't really remember because I erase the moments when we were "taking a break" from my memory. Anyway...
The point here is that his past records in gift-giving have been really good. This year, so far, has been below par. He says he was going to get me "something sexy" today, but he called earlier and said he didn't feel like going to fight the mall crowd and decided to turn his car around (he was already out) and go back to his room to play his video games. Games that I bought him for his birthday and for Christmas! His birthday was in October, not that long ago, and I always get him exactly what he wants. When he asked what I wanted, I told him that his past records have been very good and that he should probably stay along those lines. Whatever. He said he's going to get me something when he goes home and he'll bring it to me when he goes to Louisville. (That's if he gets the chance to go to Louisville...he has a job and internship stuff that he's going to be doing during the break.)
Ah...anyway...I digress. I just had to rant a little about that. I know it's selfish to think about gifts that way, but what he got me is something that you get a friend or someone you barely know. It seemed like an insult to me...it was like he was saying "Get your shit organized because I'm tired of it all being all over my place." Ugh. I'll stop here.
Until next time...
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Surgeries and the sort
This is something that occurs in about 1 in 200 people. I need to have it removed because it can cause significant nerve damage and/or problems with my blood vessels. These problems could range from thrombosis (blood clot) to an aneurysm (dilation of the blood vessel). Needless to say, it needs to be taken care of now rather than later. The longer I wait, the greater the chance that this will cause bigger problems somewhere down the line.
I'm nervous, though. I've never had a major surgery done before. Then again, most people in their 20s haven't had any surgeries (other than wisdom teeth extractions), so I guess I'm in the majority there. I'm pretty sure it will go well, but I always worry about that which I cannot control.
After the doctor's appointment today -- which had the quickest in-and-out time of all my visits -- my mom and my grandma and I went to Cracker Barrel for lunch. I was talking about something at one time, and my mom looked at me and said, "You're rambling, are you nervous?" I just grinned and said, "Nooo...maybe." Obviously my nervousness shows. I just hope I don't start freaking out too much over the next two weeks. I have one more week of classes and then finals. I really want to get all As this semester, and I'm sure that worrying will distract me from that if I let it. That means that I can't let it get to me enough to distract me, which, with me, is easier said than done.
Just thinking about it makes me hurt. Of course, I'm mental that way. That also makes me worry about the scar. I have a scar on my right hand from a cyst that I had removed when I was maybe eight years old, and I can hardly stand to touch that part of my hand. I hope that I won't be that weird with this scar. If I am, I don't see how I'll be able to wear shirts or seat belts or necklaces. Right now, I just can't stand to have people touch the area where the bone protrudes because it feels really odd. I can't describe it really, but I know that it feels strange, almost tingly.
Anyway, I think I'm rambling again because of my nerves. Have a happy Thanksgiving!
Until next time...
Thursday, November 20, 2008
November means December is next
Even though I'd like to be free from school for a few weeks, I really don't want December to be here. There are two reasons why this is. 1) I'm going to have surgery in December. A lovely bone extraction. For some reason, I got an extra bone when the genes split, and it's causing nerve and blood vessel problems, and could lead to more serious conditions, so I have to have it removed. It should be exciting lying in bed all day staring at the freshly painted walls in my room. Anyway...
2) December means I have only one semester left to spend with Adam. And while I know that May has to have its shinning moment like every other month, I'd rather stay here in November. It depresses me more than anything. I love him and I want to be able to spend more time with him than what we have left in this school year. Perhaps it's selfish, but I don't know what things will be like without him around all the time. I see him every day -- actually, I practically live with him -- and I'm afraid of having to do without that. Things are so good with us right now and I just want it to last as long as possible.
Yes, the time apart will probably be good for the both of us, but why now? Today he was talking to me and I called him crazy and he responded with, "Crazy about you." It made me really happy. Kind of indescribably happy.
I wish we were older and didn't have to spend at least one year apart because of school. Either that, or I wish I were graduating with him.
I want him to miss me, though. I want him to take all that time apart and realize what I mean to him. I know I love him. I know he loves me. I want to keep that going strong.
I don't even know how he feels about the coming separation, though. He talks about it with such ease to everyone else, but I wonder if that is masking something that he isn't telling. Should I ask him about it? I think if I did, it may dampen the good vibes we've had.
I really wish he'd give me what I want: a confession of his love and a promise that it won't end. Somehow I doubt I'll ever get that from him. But I can keep dreaming.
And maybe I am being a bit melodramatic, but I can't help it. I get into that hopeless romantic mood whenever I write about it. Hell, I do that even when I'm just thinking about it. I thrive on that wishful thinking.
Anyway, I'm sure I've probably bored any readers to tears by now, so I'll end this little post.
Until next time...
Monday, November 10, 2008
Slipping
Seriously, everything is bugging the shit out of me right now. There are many moments throughout the day where I just want to punch people because of some tiny thing that has pissed me off. I have surprised myself recently with the rage I feel.
I have argued more with my boyfriend and I have just flat out told him "no" on some things, but that still doesn't work for some reason. I would like for him to do things that I want to do, for once. Yes, we go out to eat when I want to, but everything else is what he wants to do and when he wants to do it. He bought this big ass TV, and I got him a video game for his birthday, and the first thing he does when he gets the TV in his room is invite his friend over and they play for hours. I wanted some attention; just a little attention, but he only wanted to play his game and go to sleep. Is it too much to ask for just a wee bit of attention? I barely walked in the door and his friend was over and they were playing that stupid game. If I'd known his friend was going to be there, I would not have gone over there until he'd left. Blah.
Anyway...I think I've done enough complaining on here. It helps to let some things out.
Until next time...
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Spring 2009 Class Schedule
Okay, I had a schedule already planned out and I thought it would all work out because I'm the first of the juniors to register. I even got up at 5am to register. Only seniors have been able to register for the spring so far. All of them must have to take SPAN 102, and all of them must hate Jamie Eller as much as I do, because her classes are the only classes left open. Damn. I guess I'll just wait another semester to take that Spanish class again. I am NOT taking Jamie Eller's class again. I hated it. And I failed it. Blegh!
Anyway...this is how my schedule ended up looking:
MWF 9:10-10:05am: JOUR 300 (Research in Ad & PR) MMTH 236
MW 12:40-1:35pm: MUS 340 (Women's Chorus) FAC 181
MW 1:50-3:10pm: MGT 305 (Critical Thinking in Mgt) GH 238
TR 9:35-10:55am: ENG 304 (English Language) CH 103
TR 11:10a-12:30pm: ENG 306 (Business Writing) CH 126
TR 12:45-2:05pm: ENG 391 (Survey of American Lit I) CH 001
Anyone else like how smart I am to stay in Cherry Hall all day on TR? It's amazing, I know. I'm still done at 10am on Fridays. I think I like this schedule. I just have to be able to get up that early every morning, which really shouldn't be a big problem since I already get up to be in Diddle at 8:30am most days right now. Yay! I'm done with registration.
Alright. I'm done here.
Until next time...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Election Day
I'm tired of being under Republicans, of having to fight senseless wars, of having no money and worrying whether or not my bank will go under. Actually, my bank (National City) was about to go under and was bought by PNC. I'm tired of "stimulus checks" that didn't really stimulate anything! It was just extra money to pay for the gas which cost an arm and a leg at one point. (And notice how the prices have gone down right around Election Day. I'm sure they'll climb right back to $3 tomorrow.) And that stimulus money helped to pay bills that had been piling up because while my dad still has his job at Ford (thank god!) he doesn't work as many hours as he used to because of all the cut backs. Without that extra bit of money, it's been hard to pay bills and whatnot. And I'm in school...on loans. So I really hope that Obama wins and can change everything that Bush fucked up. I know it won't happen overnight, but in time, I hope this country realizes how stupid it was to put Bush in office in the first place...and then elect him for a second term. And I really hope they understand that McCain and that Palin animal would have been Bush all over again!
I hate politics, and yet I care. I'm a walking paradox.
Anyway...I think I should go now. Until next time...
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Growing up and stuff
So, yesterday was a good day; it was the first day I'd seen my man since Friday morning (at 5am). He was all cute and loving. And he did like the card that I got him for his birthday, and also the one I got him for our two-year anniversary. They were cute cards. Back to the story...I had this dream that he wrapped his arms around me, and was talking about marrying me.
I woke up this morning all happy about the day before and then I remembered the dream and, for a split second, I thought it actually happened. Then, I realized that it had to have been a dream because he would not be talking about marrying me. Not now. Maybe years from now, if we end up back together after this break-up that we're going to have to go through, but not now.
I mean, at some point yesterday, Monique told me that he had confided in her that he's worried about getting his life on track and whatnot. She said he mentioned that everything is all about him. She told him that it can't always be that way; that when he gets married, things will have to be all about an "us" and he'll have to be ready for that. He said he knows, and he knows he has to change, and he has to start working on that. These are all good things, right? I think so. I mean, he said, "I love you" to me yesterday, which he hasn't really said (with meaning) in about three months. He actually said "I love you so much, baby." Exactly.
Ah. I should go now. I have a life that I'm wasting away while sitting here. While my boyfriend is working on advertising stuff. Fun times. I feel lazy. Super lazy.
Until next time...
Monday, October 20, 2008
Planning ahead
So here's the schedule:
Mondays
JOUR 300 (9:10-10:05am)
MUS 340 (12:40-1:35pm)
MGT 305 (1:50-3:10pm)
ENG 305 (5:30-8:15pm)
Tuesdays and Thursdays
ENG 304 (9:35-10:55am)
SPAN 102 (11:10am-12:30pm)
Wednesdays
JOUR 300
MUS 340
MGT 305
Fridays
JOUR 300
I'll be done at 10am on Fridays! Go me! It gives me plenty of time for lunch on Mondays and Wednesdays. I think it should be fairly easy. Although, I still need to decide whether or not I'm going to do the Imagewest thing this spring or in the fall or next spring. I guess I could fit it into the spring schedule that I just figured out -- I'd have to drop one of the classes -- but I don't know if I want to do it this spring.
I think I should wait. I really want to work more with the Athletic Media Relations, and I think we'll be busier in the spring. I'll be completely volunteering my time because I won't get credit for it, but it will be well worth it. The first round of the women's NCAA basketball tournament is going to be held here, and we're going to be super busy during that time. I can't wait! And if I need to devote a lot of time to AMR, then I don't think that I can do the Imagewest internship at the same time.
There, I found the logical reason for waiting to do Imagewest.
I think I need to go do some work, or something. I feel a lot less busy this Monday. The past few Mondays have been kind of hectic. This one is pretty easy-going. I did take a nutrition test this morning, which I'm sure I did alright on. I'm sure I didn't do as well on this one as I did on the first one, but I'm sure I did fairly well. I do still need to write an internship journal update. I think I'll go do that now.
Until next time...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Taking a moment...
Other than that, I feel pretty busy this week, especially after a long, lazy fall break. I have to make a Powerpoint for my International PR class, and I also have to start working on my research project for that class. I am also spending a lot of time working on a 40+ page internship guide for Mac and the News/Ed program. I stopped on page 15 today after working on it for a few hours.
I also have to work at the football game this Saturday. I need to be there at 3:15 and I won't be leaving until well after the game is over. Fun stuff.
I also need to remember that I have to go to a meeting on Thursday evening at eight.
As for my personal life, I'd say that it seems to be going well. Other than not really being social, I don't think there's anything wrong right now. Maybe this Friday I can do something fun. I need a fun idea, though.
Ah...so I think this is where I end this post. I don't really have anything profound to say in this one...sorry.
Until next time...
Monday, September 29, 2008
Busy Days
1) The economy is obviously in a downward spiral, and the next thing for it is a complete crash. (There's really no pulling out of this tailspin; we're too close to bottom.)
2) Graduating means that I have to start working for a living, which is a crazy thought because I don't know how I will do in my field and all that. You know, the usual stuff that people worry about.
3) I don't know where I want to go after I graduate. I have ideas, of course (Nashville, Chicago, Seattle) but I don't know which would be best for me. I guess I will have to consider the cost of living and the rate of pay I would get wherever I go. It's a lot to think about in my opinion.
Anyway...
I had a fun weekend, with very little sleep. But the weekend also reminded me that I do not want children any time soon. Little 10-year-old girls are hard to deal with, especially when they have the "I can do everything" mentality. Ugh.
I had to drive back to Bowling Green after being in a car for 3.5 hours yesterday. Not fun. I was tired and cranky. I also hate driving at night, and I had to do that. I'm just glad that I made it back and was able to get around seven or eight hours of sleep last night. Hooray for sleep!
Now, it is time for me to go get some food. Popeye's is on the radar. Yum.
Until next time...
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Expected Graduation Date: May 2010
I went and looked up the credit hours I need, and I only need 44 more hours after I complete this semester in which I am earning 16 hours. I even went through and worked out the schedule I would need for the next three semesters. And here it is:
Spring 2009
JOUR 300....3 hours
GEOG 110....3
MGT 305....3
MUS 340....1
ENG 304....3
ENG 305....3
(Total=16 hours)
Fall 2009
JOUR 454....3
ENG 391....3
ENG 303....3
SPAN 102....3
MUS 340....1
Humanities....3
(Total=16 hours)
Spring 2010
JOUR 456....3
ENG 392....3
ENG 358....3
MUS 340....1
Intern....1
Elective....3
(Total=14 hours)
I even had trouble thinking of something to take that last semester in 2010. There is definitely enough room to move things around if necessary. I've got this all put together, and I know that I will graduate in May 2010. Adam said he finds it hard to believe. He thinks that all my semesters have been "light" and that he would have thought I'd need more hours, or another semester on The Hill. He doesn't know what I've done to get this far...I honestly don't think he can get his head around the fact that I do work hard to achieve everything that I have done.
Now, before I go on another rant about him and how fickle and arrogant he can be, I shall move on to another subject...
Eh...I'm tired as hell. I don't think I'll get to another subject tonight. Other than the fact that my creative writing class seemed to like my "found poem" which I obtained from one of my little sister's Facebook notes. Yay me for actually understanding the assignment, unlike the majority of the class. Sometimes, I think I'm surrounded my idiots...or I could just be a genius.
Anyway...
It's time for work to end, and for me to go get some food.
Thanks for reading.
Until next time...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
This May Sound Like a Teen-aged Ramble:
1) Study for nutrition test (which is tomorrow morning) DONE!
2) Go to Lone Star for the diplomats meeting tonight DONE! (It was quite delicious)
3) Start studying for international PR test (which is Wednesday)
4) Start studying for marketing test (which is Thursday)
5) Don't forget hair appointment next Tuesday at 4pm DONE! (I got it done last Wednesday)
6) Write poem for creative writing (due Thursday) DONE and done, b/c I did the one due Tuesday as well.
7) PRSSA meeting Monday
8) Get laundry done sometime over the weekend, or next week
9) Maybe get a new pair of shoes that will keep my feet relatively dry when it rains
10) Breathe!
11) Call home...maybe they have power back DONE! (They got the power back on Thursday.)
I am glad that this weekend went so well. I made it home Friday evening, was initiated into Eastern Star (longest damn meeting of my life) and watched some Supernatural. Then, on Saturday morning, I drove back to BG with my mom and sister following. They both came for the Murray State game (which we won 50-9), but my sister also came down for Focus on WKU, and wanted to talk to the people in the Journalism department, but it was Paula Quinn, and she didn't have the folders that I had put together for the event. I told Mac in a text, and he called and whatnot, and we figured out that Paula was giving people the wrong curriculum. So I have to get my sister a folder and everything with the correct curriculum and give it to her on Friday when I go home. We also decided that Paula must be on crack. Anyway...
I'm kind of frustrated with my boyfriend right now. I mean, while things appear to be going fairly well, he just angers me sometimes. Like the other night, when I looked at him, told him I loved him, and he said "No...no...quit with the 'I love yous.'" So I asked why, and it basically came down to him wanting to make May easier. Because we both know that he graduates in May, and that is probably going to be the last we see of each other, but in the meantime, we both know that we have feelings for one another. At least, I know I love him. I'm not exactly sure right now how he feels towards me, but I can assume that it's positive because he still wants me around, and he'll still hold me and kiss me. I know that after May, we probably won't talk to each other, we definitely won't see each other, and we may never do either one of those ever again. I just wish he weren't trying to distance himself emotionally like this. It will be tough, yes, but that's just something we'll have to go through....both of us. I know that he loves me...if he didn't, we wouldn't have been together for nearly two years already, and he wouldn't be trying to "make it easier" for us in May.
I just hope he misses me...even years later. It may be selfish, but I want him to finally realize that I've always been there for him, and that I love him in a way that no one else can come close to. Unfortunately, I'm quite sure that he will end up married to some trophy-wife slut in his early 30s, have kids in his mid-30s, and be divorced and lonely by the time he's 45. I just have this feeling that his life will indeed end up that way; I can tell by his personality.
I, on the other hand, may never marry, but will be planning weddings, I hope. Maybe I'll find someone that I will let myself love just as much, but I don't know it that will ever happen. I dream of getting married some day, yes, but I can't really imagine that ever coming to fruition for me. It's just one of those things that I honestly cannot picture myself doing, and I don't know why. I just take it as a sign that I just am not meant to get married, even if I want to. Okay, I'm rambling now...
I just filled this page with random, worthless babble, and I apologize to anyone who actually read any of it. I need to study some. I'll write more worthless crap later, I'm sure.
Bye.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
It finally feels like September
So today, I was walking up the stairs to Grise Hall and I just kind of tripped up some of the stairs. Luckily, no one was around to witness my clumsy moment. But then, as I was going into Cherry Hall for creative writing, I tripped over the threshold, and this time, the guy holding the door was there to see the whole thing. I think my flip-flops are against me; they're trying to kill me. I need to get a new pair of shoes, I think. While the shoes I have are still in good shape, they just let in way too much water when it rains. With those shoes, I may as well just wear flip-flops outside when it rains because I end up with soaked feet anyway.
I have a list of stuff I need to do, but I don't think I'll get to it all. But here's the (out-of-order) list to remind myself:
1) Study for nutrition test (which is tomorrow morning)
2) Go to Lone Star for the diplomats meeting tonight
3) Start studying for international PR test (which is next Wednesday)
4) Start studying for marketing test (which is next Thursday)
5) Don't forget hair appointment next Tuesday at 4pm
6) Write poem for creative writing (due Thursday)
7) PRSSA meeting Monday
8) Get laundry done sometime over the weekend, or next week
9) Maybe get a new pair of shoes that will keep my feet relatively dry when it rains
10) Breathe!
11) Call home...maybe they have power back
That pretty much covers all of it.
But a hurricane basically went through the state this past weekend, and as far as I know, my family still doesn't have power back. My sister was off school for at least Monday, I know. I don't know if she went today. I need to text her to find out...if her phone hasn't died yet.
Oh, there is a circus in town right now and they have the tigers and the elephants out in one of the parking lots in front of Diddle Arena. The poor tigers are all cooped up in small cages. They're white tigers and they're really pretty...but the male tiger just seemed very agitated when I saw him today. The elephants just stand in place and eat and stand and eat. That's about all they have room to do. People like to stop by on their way to class because it is rather rare to see tigers and elephants in the parking lot of an arena in a small town such as Bowling Green, Kentucky.
I can't go to the circus tonight anyway because I have to go to a dinner/meeting with my fellow School of Journalism and Broadcasting diplomats. It's being paid for and everything. Yay me!
I think I should probably end this rambling post about now. I should find something to work on.
-Rachel-
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Background
So I’ve decided to create this blog because I’ve had a LiveJournal for way too many years and I never update that, and I just need to start blogging stuff.
Hanna, you can probably disregard this entry since you know everything I’m about to write. So here it goes:
Right now, I’m 20 years old (I’ll be 21 in five months) and I am in my junior year at Western Kentucky University. Public relations is my major and writing is my minor. I should graduate in May 2010, but that is yet to be determined, really. But I’m pretty sure it will be done.
I have a boyfriend, who can be quite fickle — like right now — and yet, I still love him. But he graduates in May and that may, and probably will be the end of us. I’m getting myself ready for that, so I don’t think it will be as emotionally hard on me as it should be. I just know what’s up, and I’m prepared for it.
My family consists of my parents, who will be celebrating their 25th anniversary in October, and my little sister who is in her senior year of high school. We also have the cutest old dog named Dot…she’s 13 years old and the vet has called her geriatric, which makes me really sad. I love dogs. In fact, I love dogs so much that I sometimes prefer them to people. Dogs can’t talk back to you, they can’t be critical of you, and they provide unconditional love. Seriously, when I feel down, I go searching for pictures of puppies because they make me smile.
My roommate Hanna is a bit ADD, which can be hard to follow, but I have learned. We love the same colors (blues and lime green…with dashes of pink and purple) so our dorm room is coordinated quite well. We also both love Johnny Depp, so our dorm is covered in posters of him. It’s amazing; we’re so alike and everything works out so well that we have few problems. The only real problems are when we’re trying to sleep; I prefer complete darkness and silence — aside from “white noise” from a fan — and Hanna could sleep with the TV on and lights on. I’m just very sensitive when trying to sleep. Otherwise, we both like football and watching NFL games on Sunday, which is what we are currently doing.
A little more about me: I’m currently working in the Journalism department at WKU as a student worker for the news/editorial coordinator. I’m also interning with Athletic Media Relations where I’m doing a lot of design work and helping out wherever I can, really. I like it. I’m taking 13 hours not including the three intern credit hours I get. And I’m pretty busy all the time. I like being busy because that means I don’t have time to think about anything else.
Anyway…I think that’s enough rambling about myself. I think the groundwork has been put down. I will update with random entries later.
