Growing up and stuff

I haven't been too challenged in school lately. I don't understand when my boyfriend says he's stressed out because he has so much to do. Maybe I kind of hate that. Anyway...I mostly decided to write this to write about a dream I had last night.

So, yesterday was a good day; it was the first day I'd seen my man since Friday morning (at 5am). He was all cute and loving. And he did like the card that I got him for his birthday, and also the one I got him for our two-year anniversary. They were cute cards. Back to the story...I had this dream that he wrapped his arms around me, and was talking about marrying me.

I woke up this morning all happy about the day before and then I remembered the dream and, for a split second, I thought it actually happened. Then, I realized that it had to have been a dream because he would not be talking about marrying me. Not now. Maybe years from now, if we end up back together after this break-up that we're going to have to go through, but not now.

I mean, at some point yesterday, Monique told me that he had confided in her that he's worried about getting his life on track and whatnot. She said he mentioned that everything is all about him. She told him that it can't always be that way; that when he gets married, things will have to be all about an "us" and he'll have to be ready for that. He said he knows, and he knows he has to change, and he has to start working on that. These are all good things, right? I think so. I mean, he said, "I love you" to me yesterday, which he hasn't really said (with meaning) in about three months. He actually said "I love you so much, baby." Exactly.

Ah. I should go now. I have a life that I'm wasting away while sitting here. While my boyfriend is working on advertising stuff. Fun times. I feel lazy. Super lazy.

Until next time...